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SummaryIโ€™m Ben, and I grew up in a loving Christian homeโ€”my mom reading Bible stories and praying with me before bed. ๐Ÿ˜Š At age 11, I was baptized, believing I was on the straight path to heaven. But from as young as three, I fell in love with technology and, before long, was spending 16โ€“18 hours a day lost in online gaming and pornography. ๐ŸŽฎ๐Ÿ’” Those hours cost me my grades, my relationships, and nearly my lifeโ€”I even threatened my sister with a knife in a moment of rage. ๐Ÿ˜” When my heart sank under depression and self-harm thoughts, I realized nothing in the virtual world could satisfy me. Then, a preacherโ€™s hard-hitting message about true discipleship frightened me into honestyโ€”I called out to God. โœ๏ธ In that moment of surrender, His grace broke my chains: I deleted every game, threw away every illicit image, and felt my depression lift. ๐Ÿ™Œ Now, I live for Him, hungry for His Word, and free from every addiction.

In this powerful testimony, join us on a journey from despair to redemption as Ben shares his struggles with addiction, depression, and a search for meaning. Raised in a Christian family, he faced personal demons that led him down a destructive path. From addiction to online gaming and pornography to contemplating self-harm, this story reveals the transformative power of God’s love. Discover how a humbling encounter with God changed everything, breaking the chains of addiction and bringing healing.

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01:02 Christian roots & baptism
02:01 Gaming addiction intensifies
03:56 Knife threat incident
05:26 Hard gospel conviction
07:04 Heart surrender moment
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Judah Ayling
Iโ€™m Judah โ€” an ordained minister, Christian counsellor, and multi-award-winning Christian film producer (Battling Babylon, The Shadow of the Fรผhrer). I founded this ministry because I know what itโ€™s like to love God but lack the training to truly walk in truth. I was sincere but untrained, sitting under false teaching for years โ€” until sound doctrine and godly mentorship changed everything. Thatโ€™s why I now stand for truth โ€” with gentleness, but without wavering. I recently launched Lionheart Academy to help Christians grow strong in their faith and stand firm as oaks of righteousness, planted by the Lord (Isaiah 61:3). ย 
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