Summary

SummaryI grew up starving for a father’s hug and a place among men. Early wounds with my parents convinced me I’d never be “enough,” and that ache drove me to pornography and, later, to try the gay lifestyle. Pleasure was fleeting; emptiness stayed. In 1980, on Galveston Island, I hit a wall of loneliness and cried out, “God, help me!”—and He did. Jesus met me with peace that silenced the cravings. Since then I’ve learned, through church community and 12-step recovery, to trade shame for identity in Christ, surrender my sexuality daily, and live seen and loved. I’m still single, still sensitive, but finally satisfied.

Lanny has never been attracted to women—and for most of his life, he didn’t know where he fit in.

In this powerful and deeply personal testimony, Lanny shares his journey through identity, rejection, and faith. He opens up about feeling like an outsider, trying the gay lifestyle in search of love and belonging, and ultimately finding that only God could satisfy the deepest desires of his heart.

He’s never been married, never felt fully accepted by the world—but in the middle of it all, God met him with grace, truth, and purpose.

This is a story of longing, surrender, and what it means to live a life fully seen and fully loved—even when your path looks different than everyone else’s.

If you’ve ever struggled with identity, loneliness, or questions about faith and sexuality, this story is for you.

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Time Chapters
 
01:05 Longing for connection begins
05:30 Childhood wound with mom
10:15 Canyon fear & father break
15:45 Hunger for male affirmation
20:20 First exposure to pornography
25:50 Porn’s empty aftermath
30:35 College crush & manipulation
35:10 Crushing loneliness
40:05 1980 crisis on Galveston
45:50 Surrender to Jesus
49:30 Recovery & 12-step path
52:40 New identity in Christ
55:15 Advice to young Lanny
57:40 Vision for real connection
61:00 Closing gratitude
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